in sickness and in health

Jon really ment those words at the altar in sickness and in health........If you didn't already know this i spent 2 weeks in the hospital (not including the short time giving birth to Titus :) )

They are still not sure what exactly happened......some how my appendix decided to be on the wrong side and i had a bunch of abscesses all around (side note what im telling you may not all be right because i was kinda in and out of it). So they went in and removed my appendix and all the abscesses. during this whole time they werepumping me full of anit biotics and non of the pain meds worked for me or they made me get sick...They thought i was doing better and put me on full liquid diet......but shortly after we found out my insides wouldnt work! So i spent all day throwing up green vile (sorry TMI)......then i was back to just ice chips.

What i learned from all of this

1.) Jon took in sickness and in health to a hole new level......he had to help me shower, he pumped me 2 times a day to keep some of my breast milk supply up, he slept on a roll away bed every night, he helped me in and out of bed, he sat in the bathroom while i had diarrhea, being a mom to Titus cuz i couldn't, and put cold wash cloths on my body cuz i kept sweating.....there is so much more but i can't remember it all!

2.) my parents are amazing my dad reading to titus at the hospital

, my mom was at the hospital almost everyday taking care of me and Titus! my mom cried with me cuz i couldn't handle everything that was happening to me. My parents took Titus for some of the nights because Jon couldn't take care of me and Titus over night it got to be to much for him and i wouldn't sleep every time Titus woke up.

3.) my brother and sister in-law are beyond awesome....they also had their fare share of Titus at night! Jamie would come and sit with me so i could kinda feel like a mom having Titus there.

sleeping with titus

jamie finding titus's magic sleep spot :)

4.) we have so many friends and family that love us so much i can't even express our gratitude!!! all the flowers, gifts for Titus, and dinners everyone has made for us! THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!

5.) it was extremely hard for me to ask for help especially for stuff i never in a million years thought i would ever ask help for (like asking my husband to wash my hair for me or take me to the bathroom!

6.) my friend kathleen is also another person who has done way to much she also stayed at the hospital to help me and Titus and my mom while Jon did some work (someone has to make the money) good thing she is a nurse cuz she was there the day of the throwing up green vile, and for trying to get me to go pee.....i was so out of it i was so embarrassed later thinking about it

7.) jon's parents all so helped us so much too they took Sedona (you know that's a hard thing to do:)) and cleaned our house for us and took me home from the hospital.....they also bought us diapers (since cloth diapers were not going to work so well in the hosptial and at other peoples houses) and formula since i had to pump and dump cuz of all the drugs...

8.) we have the best son ever!!! and the cutest!!! He did so well being so little and moved from home to home and hospital everyday!!! It was hard for him to transfer to formula but doing ok now....im really working on my milk supply so he can get a little bit of it still! Pray for that to multiply!!!

I just want to thank everyone for all your prayers and support during this little trial we had!!!! Prayers do work!!!

Titus James Weber

Welcome Titus James Weber!!!!!

if you want to nickname my baby please stick with Ti (not T.J.) :) or spud (according to my family) you'll have to ask Jon how this came about:)

Proud parents

9Lb 12oz 22inches long 14in head.....I feel like if men brag about their scars or broken bones.....i feel i can brag that i delivered Titus ALL NATURAL I was in labor for 20 hours (i actually started labor monday and was in and out of the hospital 3 times) we waited (along time) for my water to break on its own....and it finally did and 45 minutes later we had a beautiful (large) baby boy!!!! Sorry for the bragging.......funny story.....the other day at church someone ask how big he was and jon said 9Lb.....as we walked away i told Jon that if he is going to tell people how big he was tell them either almost 10Lb or the exact weight....cuz i feel everyone should know how much pain i was in :)

this is great grandpa Fath.....he has been really sick so we weren't able to meet him till the other day......this meeting brought up some emotions from the past......when i was born my grandpa fath's dad was really sick and after i was out of the hospital my parents took me to meet my great grandpa (i was named after my great grandpa Christian) and 3 days later he passed away......so my grandpa wanted to meet Titus.......It was a really special moment for us......We thank God for all the family and friends who are able to meet Titus and we know that on Jon's side and my side all the grandparents in heaven are watching him from above!!!!

in labor?????

So Jon and i just finished our breast feeding class and our birthing class and Jon was joking around with the teacher (who is a nurse at the hospital) saying the baby will probably come on Tuesday (because of the snow storm) and the nurse said oh no not Tuesday we have a lot of women being induced on that day (1/11/11) SERIOUSLY!!!! So of coarse on 1/10/11 around 10:30 i started tracking my contractions cuz they were really close together 2-4 min apart for about 2 hours this went on......so i decided to go to bed and see what happened.......well, jon couldn't sleep (cuz he was super excited:)) and he decided to call first nurse and of coarse she said to go to the hospital. We were there in the small room (cuz all the rooms were full) and they had me walk for a couple of hours and hooked me up to a monitor to track the contractions and the baby.......and we tried to sleep (maybe a few hours) and they checked me 3 times to see if i dilated any more.......i did just a little, but since my due date isn't till the 23 they decided to send me home........I felt pretty stupid.....but before we left i asked my Ob what should we have done and she said we did exactly as we were suppose to do since my contractions stayed that way until the next morning (i kinda felt like i was making it up)......she said she would have told me the same thing as the first nurse cuz you can't check your cervix over the phone :)

So we are suppose to go in on friday if we still haven't had him.........

Another note if i don't have him till Jan 23 he will be 9LB!!!! when they did the ultra sound, Jon asked how big his foot was cuz his hands and feet looked huge.....she measured his foot to be 3 inches!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jon says hes just going to walk right out of the womb.....i hope not :)

plan/ not to plan

If you don't already know this by now but I'm a planner and i like things to be done in advance my way :) !!! Well as you also may know that baby's change that......There are a few things that I'm very thankful for before this baby boy comes......

1.) I'm thankful for friends who have been through this before and can share their knowledge and what they will do or wont do again!!!!

2.) all my friends and family who have blessed us with A LOT of our baby needs!!! You guys are WAY to generous!!!

3.) cloth diapers we are very excited that we decided this before we had baby boy because a lot of stuff has come up financially and we were able to register for cloth diapers and also purchase them before more financial burdens came up! It really puts my heart at ease knowing that we are saving money and not adding money needs to my maternity leave since i don't get paid for it!

4.) my Chiropractor has shared some amazing things i never would have thought of during my pregnancy especially what is to come with labor.

5.) breastfeeding, i pray that i will be able to breastfeed....besides the fact that formula is so expensive it will also help me and the baby in so many ways

6.) part time work, I'm thankful that i will be able to be with our baby boy and be able to work still and help get rid of more of our debt....but also do what i love (hair) :) and feel like i'm not missing out on our sons growing up!

7.) an amazing husband who supports me with everything....breastfeeding, cloth diapers, natural labor, part time work, taking on financial burdens, and doesn't complain when i make lists that i want done before the baby is born!

8.) wanting to have natural birth (i understand complications happens and when that time comes we will deal with it then) but I feel that natural will be the best for me and baby.....so pray that i will be able to handle it! (thank you Jon and friends for supporting this and keeping me positive:))

9.) for beautiful safe crib (my dad made), nursery being done, safe warm home

10.) lots and lots of love from friends and family who are excited for our baby boy Weber and for spoiling him before his even born!!

keep us in your prayers please!!!! Especially since everyone says this is going to be a strain on our marriage after the baby is born and changes our routine a lot!!! pray pray pray!

Merry Christmas!

My friend Sarah wrote this in her Christmas card and i thought it was perfect for what is to come in our family, Christmas and a New Year! (Sarah is also the one that is designing my logo for my future salon ......she is amazing!!!:))

So, it’s Christmas time, and with a baby in the house, it naturally makes me think of baby Jesus.

Babies are funny. They have this innate ability to breakdown barriers. They can stop whatever is dividing people and evoke a smile from complete strangers...or complete loved ones.

Jesus can do that too. He’s in the barrier-breaking business too. Who is that baby Jesus? Maybe your friend? Maybe a fuzzy memory from your childhood? Maybe even a part of your life that you’ve tried to not think about? Or perhaps even someone you don’t really know? Regardless, He wants to have a relationship with you.

So this our prayer for you. The next time you hear or see a baby, think about little baby Jesus. May that smile that some baby brings to your face, remind you that God loves you and wants to be closer to you.

God gave us baby Jesus, so that we may live without fear and bask in His unconditional, forgiving love. So smile!

Hear His coo. May Baby Jesus melt your heart this year.

In the arms of an Angel

Jon and I decided to plant a tree for all our children we have plus one extra tree. this year we are planting one extra for our niece or nephew angel……

Today is my brother and sister in-laws first due date. I really wanted to plant this tree before winter…..but that didn't work before the ground froze.

this statue is going to go in front of that tree when we plant it in the spring time.

You are probably wondering why are we doing this….well we want our children to know and understand that even a baby in utero is a baby even if it wasn't born…..we want them to know that there is a lot of pain in losing a child!

I also decided that this tree is going to be for all our friends and family who have also lost a baby or can't get pregnant! A lot of people don't understand how much pain there is with a loss like this…..a lot of people say well they are having a baby now or they have kids though or they can adopt or do invetro…..but knowing my friends pain they have stated that the pain will always be in their hearts even the husbands!

Please take this time with me and pray for Danny and Jamie on this day and for ALL my friends (Sam and Jenni, ………….) and all the people that we don't know about and are suffering alone….. who have gone through this…….or will go through this……

Lord, you bring life into this world and you take life and we don't know why….Please help us understand some day why. Wrap your arms around everyone who's hearts are hurting! Please give them the strength to get through the pain and help them come closer to their spouses during this time of hurt! Mother Mary you know the pain that many women are feeling when you watch your one and only son die on the cross please comfort all these women who are hurting and wrap your arms around their wombs!

If you are emotional after reading this don't read this next poem…..it was hard for me to even put this (but I have a Kleenex box next to me)

Your Little Angel

Forever will I love you
You will always be my mom
As I sit with angels I look down at you and point proudly
See . . .See her . . .over there, That's her!

Did you know I could hear your thoughts at night
When you used to lie in bed staring, rubbing your hand on your belly
Looking up at the ceiling in the dark wondering things . . .
Who I would look more like . . .
About how my laugh would sound . . .
My First steps . . .
Books that you would read to me . . ones with pictures . . .
"I like Those!"

The park . . .how you would walk me in a stroller to play on the swings
How about after I ate ice cream the dog excitedly licking my
face almost knocking me down . . .
You just smiled when you read that . . I could see you

Do you know I call you "mommy"?
When you are in the kitchen I pretend I am there also and you can see me
I sit at the table and draw with crayons
I made a picture for the refrigerator
Yellow, blue, red and green
Look its of you and me with a sky and trees
I gave you curly hair . . .

Easter . . .that's my favorite
I always think of you holding my hand taking me to church
One of my socks keeps falling down

Mommy . . .I like the way you kiss my sisters goodnight
on the forehead and tuck them in
I play with them in their dreams
They don't know me but if you ask if they ever
dreamed of playing with a little girl
they would say yes . . .
That's me . . .

Do you remember that bird each early spring
that used to always return and sing
It would have been right around the time of my birthday
That was me to . . .
I would sing "I love you"

I am always along side you . . .
Sometimes you can feel me
A brush against your dress, a breeze on your face . . .
that's when I kiss you

You have always kept me in your mind and heart
Thank you . . .
One day we will be together in heaven and you will cry
and lift me in your arms and I will hug
you so very tight and never let go . . .

But for now I have to . . .

No matter where you go, what you do, I am with you
Always know that I am "Your Little Angel"
I love you mommy . . .

Bye . . .

maternity pictures

Just a side note about this day.......the Sunday before we were going to do these pictures....69 degrees outside but Sarah was sick so we did it the next Sunday 35 degrees (just a little cold). Also I kinda had a little melt down.......by little i mean BIG......It started with me freaking out cuz i had planned on an outfit for months and then since its was so cold out i thought i needed to change my outfit....well pregnant women shouldn't change outfits!!!! let's just say there were tears, and emotion thrown every were!!! But i have an amazing husband and he tried so hard to make it all better!

 

   

 

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