Potty learning

I guess we are now potty learning.....we arent really training him....he just say potty and we go sit on the toilet and sometimes he goes and sometimes he doesnt.
   My amazing husband actually started this whole potty learning, Ti said potty and jon took him (i just thought he wanted to play w/ the toilet, toilet paper, or just flush the toilet....i was going to be a good mom and ignore him) and after sitting a little bit he went pee! So he asks to go maybe 1a day & we arent pushing more. Then last night he asked to go so jon took him & he kept saying poopy poopy and then he went poop & pee!!!! Seriously i couldnt be prouder! I pray this continues so we have this out of the way before baby comes......I can wish cant I ;) in my dreams ;)

Stressed......Not Me!

   It will be 11 weeks before we have this baby boy......and that means we have less then that to get the kitchen finished, Titus's big boy room done, finish making meals to freeze, sort through all of Titus's old clothes.......that can all get done before the baby comes...RIGHT?!?!?! and all of this happens while living our normal life and running our own businesses! Are we crazy.....YES YES we are!

    Also to add to the stress I had to change my hours i work at the salon because we can't find a nanny at all! We tried everything! i paid money for a nanny service, i posted the job on there and emailed 20 people on there, i posted on ISU student job board and emailed everyone I know.......you would think i would at least get one person! NOPE! So after talking to a friend and Jon, God made it very clear that im suppose to change my hours to work with our original nanny that has been Titus's nanny since he was 6 weeks old. So I pray that i don't loose clients because of this change! It will be a nice change for our family though. Its funny that this whole time i've been thinking God wanted me to TRUST in a different way, He wanted me to TRUST him with my finances & whats best for our family.  Its funny when you pray about something with your mouth and not wait for a response or listen you can come up with a lot of different things....like what you THINK he is telling you! Thats why im so glad i have an amazing husband friends, and church who remind me to LISTEN! 

         So prayers for my sanity would be awesome! :)  

the parent i thought i would be

Its interesting how you change as your family changes. If you would have asked me what kind of a parent/ wife would you be.......i don't think i would have said what i do now :) Im a very controlled structured person....but Titus and Jon have changed me some (i still have those qualitys....if you call then that)

*we do have a schedule but I try and let Titus change it especially if hes in a bad mood.

*Titus doesn't wear shoes....his feet are made of steel i swear :) I use to judge people that didn't put shoes on their kids

*Titus eats food off the floor....and yes licks his spilled water on the floor (this is only in places i know arent extremely gross :) I mean grosser then our dog....Titus thinks he should eat her too (i think thats how he kisses her...but gross either way) but i let him


*we play when i should be cleaning something (this was and still is hard...i have to remind myself is that needed to be done before he goes to bed)


*he is thee messiest eater (i would have never thought i would have let this happen) but the cool thing now is that he loves to use his fork, its still messy but not as messy.......i just except that either Sedona will clean up the mess or titus will eat it later :)


*no tv while Titus is awake (unless im cooking dinner....which stresses me out anyways or Titus is in a bad mood) he does watch "Baby signing time" -but i use to have the t.v. on ALL the time even if i wasn't watching it. 


*eating vegetables.....we try and eat what Titus eats......i use to never ever eat vegetable...it was processed, canned, frozen or from a boxed and now we have a garden the size of a football field. 


*cooking.....Yay! i finally can cook.....well follow directions is what i mean by cook.....but im not going to lie Jon has to help me a lot! what an amazing husband!!! he takes my frantic calls way to much!


*messy play.....if it keeps Titus entertained ...I dont care how long it take me to clean up :) 


*i don't care what other people say (this is what really shocks me) there have been a lot of comments from people about you shouldn't do that or Titus can't have that or he shouldn't still be doing that.......well if you were his parents then you can decide, but your not so keep your mouth shut :) cuz i don't care! If it makes our life easier and less stressful then thats probably why we do it :)


*clean house.....im really working on not having it perfect for when friends come over. Jon says we don't need to make it look like we don't live here! 


Sorry for all the rambling but if you made it to the end can you pray that i TRUST for a nanny! Im having a hard time processing the difference between not doing anything and doing to much and not Trusting. I have placed ads on care.com and ISU student job board and emailed everyone that i can think of and even Facebook........so now i need to work on the Trust part....LET GO and LET GOD! its so easy to say then do.....Prayers to keep me from freaking out and take control even more! 

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kitchen remodeling ? GUTTING!

kitchen remodel  gutting,  Jon started this big  HUGE project memorial day weekend.  I stated that i don't think i can go longer then 2 weeks without a kitchen...Jons response "we will see", Lets say i have made it with a lot of paper and plastic and washing bottles and dishes in the bathroom sink......i did have to break down and use the tub (which really grossed me out but i bleached it and scrubbed it very well). I have not had any melt downs yet :) and we have been grilling on Jons Big Green Egg (pizza on there is AMAZING), using a camping stove, microwave and our toaster oven for all our meals. we didn't have power in half our house for about a week (flash lights and candles are amazing )

Mikey and Jon moving everything in the kitchen to the dinning room and living room (im glad that we have a pretty large living room!!) 

 good bye ugly everything!!!

yes this is a sewer stack going through out old kitchen and the previous owner sewed that material around it :)

good bye ugly green and ugly carpet

 good bye wall!

no more wall

no more floor!

they did all new plumbing and electrical. hopefully this next week they will be replacing the window behind Jon in this picture with the exact window thats by our dads in the picture (we bought these windows at REALLY discount a couple of years ago). after that im not sure whats next maybe drywall :) 

we wont have the whole kitchen done for awhile cuz we decide that minimal and live able until stuff is on sale :) since we dont use credit cards we try and stay with in our miens :) 

So that means Jon is going to do concrete counter tops  (i have never herd of before but Jon really wanted it so i did my research and i actually LOVED what i found) and my dad has made 2 cupboards and the large cupboard that will be our island (i have been trading my dad haircuts for cupboards...its just only taken me 3 years to pay for most of them :)) and new lighting is all we will do right now.

we probably wont have all the cupboards for awhile cuz we arent sure where we want them all yet. We wont have tile down either......i would love to at least paint the walls and have curtains up to distract you away from the unfinished stuff  :) we will see :)  

freak out!

  disclaimer.......Im so excited to have 2 babys! Im so excited to find out what we are having (2 weeks)! Jon and i would love to have more children if its what God is wanting for us, since apparently my OB made it very clear that she was shocked that i got pregnant because i only have one ovary (i had one removed when a cyst the size of a grapefruit wrapped around it and killed it) and all the scars from my surgery's after Titus was born....so in all im very blessed!
  freak out = am i ready to have a girl, Titus has made it very clear that he loves to wrestle! How does a 16month old know how to wrestle?!?!?!? but if i have a boy am I ready for that much destruction? or girl drama? I already have all boy stuff....i know that if we have a girl we have a few months to hit consignment and garage sales :)

but titus amazes me all the time though......this is our friend Isaac and Titus wanted to hold him so he climbed right on the couch and just looked at me like ok im ready.....i thought he would just shove him off his lap after i put him there....but nope he just kept hugging him....SO CUTE then after a little bit he then shoved him off, but he held him WAY longer then i thought he would :)
   a name.....when i was pregnant with Titus i new before i had him i wanted his name to be Titus! right now we only have a girl name.....cuz Jon keeps knocking my boy names down.
   Titus has no clue that im pregnant cuz every time i say don't step on the baby or squish the baby....he looks around with his arms in the air like where is baby :)
   Titus is growing up so fast it seems like everyday he says a new word or a new sign......but he WILL NOT say any ones name except (dad, mom, papa,sedona, cats) he did say Audra and O (olivia) one time....but he just looks at you like i know thats grandma, Julia, mikey, danny,  jamie, matt, jenny why do i need to say thier names :) I keep trying to record him saying Loader (skid loader) because it is hilarious.....but i made the mistake of saying one day, thats Daddy's skid loader and thats Titus's skid loader....so now he just says daddys and Titus's :(
  The other day in a very serious face he was telling me something and just stared at me like your answer is?!! so cute he just kept babbling the same thing over and over again.....then he got annoyed that i didn't answer him the way he wanted (cuz i was laughing).
    Im so glad that we are learning signing because he tells us so much now....he does so many signs but now he is making his own so that makes it hard for grandparents to know exactly what he's saying sometimes since they dont see him everyday seeing him change some of them.

Life on the move

    My last blog was a little out of control....you know how you just have those days where, if anyone says the wrong thing you have a melt down.....well mine was an EXPLOSION! Its crazy how your life is so much better when Titus sleeps thru the night (except now that hes teething again) and Jon helps out more with dishes and laundry.....its so funny how life is all good again!

   Titus is 14 months old and he is on the move!!! He is so crazy he will find anything to climb and any thing to push your buttons but he always does it in a cute way....sometimes i have to try really hard not to laugh when he does something wrong....i mean how funny is it that he hits grandma on the head with a large plastic hammer......yes i'm laughing as i'm typing this....or when he does something that hes never done before but its so wrong! Like climbing the book shelf....most moms would say "NO, Get down" but no i standing next to him taking pictures......but honestly i have found that if i tell him NO and move him away from the situation...he will go right back to it but if i let him do it once hes done doing it that day....technically he has only climbed the book shelf 2 times :) and that was a couple of weeks ago. 

I am loving every new moment and new silly thing he does!! He defiantly is a boy.....These are words i never thought i would say EVER: Titus we dont eat bugs, Titus stop eating dirt, Titus we dont play with dog poop (yes my son was playing with dog poop...there was nothing on his face or mouth so hopefully none made it in there!!!), Titus stop eating the dog, Titus the cats dont like to wrestle like Sedona does!....and the list goes on

He is such a good boy tho....we bought him a baby doll and he LOVES him....he hugs him all the time....i think its his lovey :) Jons not so sure about a baby doll being his lovey :) 

He is so smart, everyday he says a new word or new baby sign, its SO cute....but of coarse he wont ever repeat anything on demand! He doesn't like to show off :) or hes just stubborn like his mother!

 climbing everything eating dirt first soccer ball

helping dad in yard

best friend Silas (yes they are 4 weeks apart...i know Titus is huge!)hugging Mary (he loves giving hugs)

 climbing everything again

baby doll in the box still (giving him a kiss)

 climbing everything agin (yes he has climbed to the top and stood on the wire shelf!)

 

alone

  how can you feel alone when you are surrounded by people? Do you ever feel like know one understands? Why is it that every time i try and cook it never turns out? Why do i get so over whelmed sometimes (it feels a lot more, then it use to)? Why when i want to share my feelings no one is around to listen? why is it that if you say something that makes me angry (during my period) i might punch you!? why is it that i can cry at the drop of a hat or if something really happy happens i want to cry? Why do compare myself to other moms? why can't i find time to work out or blog any more? My house is always a mess and their is always something to be done or cleaned but all i feel is tired and over worked! i feel like dishes and laundry are never ending!
   Does any one else feel this way?? i have such a hard time since my personality and temperament is organized, scheduled, controlled, and now i feel like its the opposite!
    How can you be a single parent....I can't be one!!! It's hard enough when Jon gets up for work before we do and comes home late and i try so hard to make this home look put together....but really how can that happen with a 1 year old who thinks he should climb and knock over everything! and a dog that brings dirt and gross dog smells in with her and thinks that Titus's was only born to play with her. and now we are cooking A LOT more now, so that means dishes seem to ALWAYS need to be cleaned! (have i mentioned that dishes are my hate to do!!!)
    Enough of the negative and onto the positive I have a ONE YEAR OLD!!!! Crazy!!!! He is so big!!! everyday is always something new, he says so many words (but never on command), he can say: Jesus, Sedona, Dad, Papa (grandpa), Ga (grandma), ni ni (night night),bye bye, Hi Dad, Sedona SIT (i don't say that, that offten?!), cat, dog, juwa (julia..our nanny), mom (very rare occasion). He loves to dance, make boy noises, spit, throw his chairs on the floor (yes throw!), loves books, love to cuddle, likes to put his finger on your lips to make that funny noise, does a lot of baby signs but when he gets really excited he combines all the baby signs into one until you give him what he wants :) so cute! He makes Thee most ridiculous faces (like his father), oh yeah have i mentioned he is ALL BOY.....he even will squeeze his orange pieces and make a mean boy noise while doing it or that he grunts when he is trying to squeeze between two things that are in his way! He still thinks that EVERYTHING goes in his mouth.
    PRAYERS, that i can get my thyroid tested soon, God leads Jon and i to figure out if we should adopt or keep waiting, that Titus stops growing up :) That i can keep growing my business (so please send your friends!) That i can keep having enough courage to cook and change our eating habits to better our health, and that Jon keeps having amazing job opportunity!
    what can i pray for you about? it seems that i do better with my prayer life if i am praying for someone else!